monday, sept 7

awful. can not type it out. in fear of acknowledging my own feelings. i will be better very soon.

wednesday, sept 2



this is a cry for help

wednesday. augh 26

okay so i talked to the social workers at school and today wasnt even that bad. except for the first 2 hours. i was a little bit early and it was hot as fuck waiting in the sun. im gonna start coming late since they dont let anybody inside early. fuck them. i sat with two new people today and they're pretty funny. my friend came a little bit late but i'm glad she came because she makes it a lot more fun. im excited for tomorrow since im actually gonna have work since i got my classes. AND we r Gonna go to The park to do Activities with Smoke! it will be my first time with This.

tuesday august 25

literally fuck this school. i was early and i was gonnna wait behind the school but i wasnt even there 5 fucking minutes before a security comes out and talks down to me acting like im supposed to know i have to wait in some dumbass room. ya got 4 doors and its a gamble which one is unlocked. Fuck You. when i went yesterday they did not let anybody wait inside. my friend wasnt even here today and they wont let me seee my other one cuz shse in a fifferent room and there wasnt shit to do bc no accounts were in their system. 5 hours of my day fucking wasted. what a fucking coincidence that dolly parton dies today and my school goes to shit.

monday, august 24

i'm so sexy i made 2 friends at school todaty. i love my new school. this makes going every day worth it. #blessed they are so cool and awesome type ashit. this is gonna be a good year i can feel it in my balls. i am actually excited??? i've never been excited for school unless it was to ditch.. cant ditch this school or else the truancy ossifer will Get Me.

sunday,august 23

uugh i went shopping for new clothes uuuugh. my new school has a dress codeand none of my old clothes would've worked. too slutty. a girl told me she liked my skirt i love being a girl it's inspiring . i love my new tops and pants and the fitting rooms make me look very sexy. i also got mints incase my breath gets funky 

but i'm not sure if i'll be allowed to have them cuz tjey're strict on sealed food and drinks to make sure its not drugs or alchohol// .. t. 

friday, august 21

ok so i missed school orientation yesterday... but it's okay because i made it up today. i was scared as shit to go inside. it wasnt even that bad. the girl next to me went to my old school but she's a couple grades younger. i didn't want to talk too much because i felt like i had bad breath. i WILL be talking to her more on monday bc i felt like i was too quiet today. WE BOTH HAVE OUR EYEBROWS PIERCED!!

this school is definitely a lot better for my mental health since it's only 4 hours AND it starts later. but... they have a truancy ossifer who does not play around. truancy was in my past and i am over it now!!!! i'm actally kinda excited to start on monday even though ik im gonna be tired of it by tuesday. but fuckit we ball.

saturday, august 8

okay so today was very fun. i went to a food festival where local restaurants sell small portions of their food for like $5. there was a stage where the bands would play. i think the old guy in the first band pointed at me while i was walking but i was too scared to make eye contact so i kept going ): i regret it now i wanted to wave at him. he probably pointed at me because my outfit was Fire. felt hot today haha. AND I GOT THE PRETTIEST EARRINGS THAT MATCHED MY FIT PERFECTLY FOR $4!!!!!!! AND. i got the best lemonade of my Life. i will think about this FOREVER. overall today was a good day even though i had to pee in a porta-potty.

wednesday, august 5

im almost going back to school... it's a little embarrassing since i should've graduated injune. (i'm NOT gonna be a super senior) im going to a different school for people who got fucked by the school system!! i missed a lot of hs due to mental health and thankfully this school is for people with issues. it's been weighing on me a little but i'm excited to go so i can get back in control of my own life!! i'm a baller.

i've also been trying to find some kind of govvernment identification so i can get a job.... please dont make me go to the dmv inm so fucking scared.... i want to have tattoos but i cant do that if i dont ahve MONEy. ew work ewewew w*rk FUCK

ALSO IM GOING TO A SHOW WITH A FRIEND I HAVENT SEEN IN LIKE 8 MONTHS!!! I MISSED GOING TO SHOWS WITH THEM!!1!

sunday, august 2

i had a productive day of watching Children of tge Corn. i am burdened with the emotional weight that comes with flesh. I have nothing to do. I am going crazy.

saturday, july 25

full of whimsy and whatnot

happy mcgiggleshits

tuesday, july 21

less depressed now!!1! i watched a movie called The Dead Dont Die. very awesome. 10/10 and the song is very good. possibly my new favorite movie. i love zombi.

wednesday, july 15

ME AND MY MAMA R GOING TO A RESTAURANT TOGETHER!!!

i already forgot what i ordered but it was fire. french silk pie craving has been fulfilled. i am incredibly depressed right now for some reason.

tuesday, july 14

BOYFRIEND TODAY!!! he watched me play zomboid and then we played roblox together im gonna get him mega pregnant.🫃we complete each other i am so glad i met him Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow Wow He Makes Me Say Wow Hi

monday, july 13

i am craving french silk pie.

i gave my dog a bath while i wore a bikini so he didn't shake his dog water on my clean clothes. He is the cutest baby ever.

I am also craving a whole block of sharp cheddar.

tater tots for dinner.

i get homesick when i look at the stars.

sunday, july 12

I woke up from some strange dreams. I've been having a lot recently; I feel that my dreams set the tone of the day. It's like I am continuing the dream in my waking life. I'm pretty sure I experience deja vu more than the average Joe.

Today I

colored in a coloring book I got for $3. Discount stores r goated. I am experiencing impending doom; I will bring this up with my therapist this Saturday.

saturday, july 11 

my boyfriend is at work today and i am being his chud girlfriend and playing project zomboid AND sitting on my voluptuous ass all day. but at least i went to 7/11 for free slurpee day. blue raspberry mixed with coke.

ok today is not my best zomboid day. i keep getting torn apart by hoards way faster than usual. my mind is becoming so project zomboid that when i ripped open a paper wrapper i heard the sheet ripping sfx.....

thursday, july 9

oooh my GOD. i need a job. I am going crazy. A normal 9/5 blablabla sounds like HELL. I want to sit under a tree and read books forever. I want to snuggle my boyfriend I want to make art. I dont want to make job.



tuesday, july 7



I'm creatively fulfilled by the crafting I did last night. Instead of making a full sized shelf I tested my skills by making a mini prototype.I didn't measure anything I just trusted my heart. it looks wonky but now I know what I need to change.

I just remembered it's almost time to return books to the library....



ok i am now half way done with the shelf and it is VERY sturdy. i measured very smartly. My dog was trying to eat my marker as I was marking measurements. I had to block him from my section of the floor when I fired up the hot glue gun... He was VERY angry with me.